mind tricks

behind the face I can clearly see what ur tryna do, I knew ur plan
before u had mentally even approached the idea, I knew ur motive but I
allowed it anyway, maybe it was the way you looked at me...that same
glare you've giving every other girl but for some reason it made me feel
special, and at those crucial moments of my mind confusing its gut
feeling with butterflies I could of sworn I fell in love that night, and
you of course played ur game extra tight...no nervousness no uncertainty
see I know you've done this plenty of times before me but I allowed the
game to be played but instead of me being the opponent I was his pawn
and he was playing against his self...I was his deck of cards as he
tried to beat his own score at soletier but I continuously let him play
me, denying my dignity and becoming naive to this mans scent on top of
me...by now im fully aware that's he's pulling me, sucking me digging me
into an unseen deep, an all time low...he had sucked the life out of me.
everything I had once believed was gone, all memories of a time when I
felt as though I was a queen was erased the knowledge I had gained on my
journeys of life had vanished, and now I sit here...almost in a panic,
my sanity had been stolen from me, the fogginess in my mind wouldn't
allow me to breath and all the while gasping for atleast some sort of
breath here you are, standing over me, looking down as if I were the one
wrong & here is where I put my head down, && realize those were not
butterflies they were alarms in my body going off so I couldn't possibly
be mad at him...I did this to myself, I allowed him to molest my complex
being and now I am nothing...I feel bleak